suraya's twentyfourseven

if it's good, why is it scary? just thinking of it make my heart races.

being here as who I am right is not easy.  and yes, I'm avoiding the word "difficult" because I don't think that it is difficult difficult but it is also not easy either. haha haih that's how complicated I am. yeah of course nothing is easy in this world but me, knowing myself, I can't believe that I'm here right now achieving most of my dreams and wishes. I've never, in my whole 20 years something life (I feel old huhu), really work hard for something. I mean at least from my own point of view, I think that I'm always lazying around and procrastinate most of the time. BUT I got what I want, things that I've always wanted since I don't know, 5 years ago? being here right now, I won't say that I'm successful, I still have a lot more to achieve and currently I have nothing to be proud of hm. so, the main point I'm writing this, is because I think that I don't deserve all this cause 1) I've seen a lot of people struggle...